491 days to go until wedding day! That is a LOT of days, and Ben and I get bummed sometimes about this. It would be great if the wedding could be this summer or fall, but it’s just not a good idea. The best idea would be to wait till Ben graduated and had a real job lined up, but that’s even more days and we would hate that even more. So we just talk all the time about how we wish our big day was sooner, even though there’s nothing we can really do about it. Seems like we’ve always been waiting for something. We waited six months to officially start dating because I wasn’t allowed to date till I turned 16. Then we waited a year for me to graduate so we could be in the same place again. Now we’re again waiting for our wedding day. Its times like this that I wish I could just speed time up and get on with it! There’s so much we want to do, and it seems so far away. We can’t wait to have a family, but again, that’s years from now. We can’t wait to have our own house, but school debts will keep us renting longer than we will probably like. Why can’t time just speed up??
But then again…I’ll never have this time again. Only for 491 more days will I be an excited young bride-to-be. Only 491 more days for me to dream and plan and prepare for my wedding. This is the only time in my life where it is acceptable for me to spend hours online looking at ceremony decorations, reception centerpieces, and wedding cakes. And this is one of the only times in my life that people really love hearing all about me and Ben. Seriously, if I wasn’t engaged, people would probably get pretty annoyed at all my ramblings! We really are enjoying this time in our life where it’s just about us.
I know that the years will fly by, and someday I will really wish that time would slow down, not speed up. Our big day will be here before we are probably really ready for it, and then from there the time will really fly. I want to fully enjoy this time in my life, with all its craziness and yet sweet simplicity. Aside from paying for school and doing well in classes, I have no big worries or bills to pay yet. I’m surrounded by great people and the opportunity to just be random and crazy is always available while living in a dorm full of girls. I can laugh and be silly and watch ridiculous movies and just enjoy this life that God has blessed me with. While I absolutely cannot wait to get married, I don’t want to take this wonderful time in my life for granted.
So, I’m just working through living in the here and now. I will continue to plan and dream, but I refuse to forfeit this time in my life. The wedding will get here soon enough, we’ll have a house when the time is right, and the pitter patter of little Whitley feet will come when we are both good and ready for that. I’ll want to freeze life when we have kids, just as I know my mom often did when we were little. Time is precious and it flies right by, so I’m just gonna live and enjoy each stage as God presents it to me. His timing is ultimate and perfect…who am I to question it?
“He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end. I know that there is nothing better for people than to be happy and to do good while they live. That each of them may eat and drink, and find satisfaction in all their toil—this is the gift of God. I know that everything God does will endure forever; nothing can be added to it and nothing taken from it. God does it so that people will fear him.” – Ecclesiastes 3:11-14
